Before You Back Out
Last Friday, I backed out. yep, I backed.
I had the ticket, the hotel reservation, and had known for months I was supposed to go and be a part of a very specific conference. But honestly? I had also dreaded it for months.
Oh, the weight of memories. The vulnerability of walking into a room where grief might be stirred. Next month marks seven years since I became a widow, and even after all this time of healing and therapy, certain milestones can still feel tender at inconvenient and unexpected moments.
So I emailed and told the Never Alone crew to give my ticket to someone else. That was that. D-O-N-E. Which, in my case was also spelled R-E-L-I-E-V-E-D!
A day or so later, I watched a simple video from a table host i had never met. It wasn’t flashy. It wasn’t loud. It was gentle and safe.
Something inside me shifted. The room, the sessions, and the conference I had feared being a part of suddenly became a space that might hold me instead of undo me.
What I had labeled as “too hard” began to look like “worth the drive.” I emailed and messaged people to see if I could actually use my ticket after all.
yes, I was being wishy-washy and hated that I was, truly. Yet more important to b obedient even wh outside of my comfort zone that to ish what God had in store for me had I simply followed through.
How often do we surrender our seat because we assume it will hurt too much to sit in it? Beware, convenience, can rob us of much joy. I almost missed it. In a matter of hours, I will embark on the comfort, healing, and restoration that the enemy tried to take away from me.
Sometimes obedience doesn’t roar — it whispers. Sometimes courage isn’t standing on a stage; it’s getting in the vehicle and making the drive. Sometimes real healing begins the moment we decide not to back out.
The Call to Action
Is there a “seat” you’ve been tempted to give away — a conversation, a gathering, a step of obedience?
Pause before you withdraw. Pray. Ask God if He is inviting you to stay. Then take one brave step forward.
Don’t surrender your rightful seat. Recognize what is holy ground.
today’s radiant insights:
The enemy often tries to convince us to forfeit the very spaces God intends to use for our restoration.
Breakthrough is on the other side of showing up.
Healing is often waiting in the spaces and places you are tempted to avoid.